Funny how lyrics sometimes describe your life better than you could ever put it into words yourself.
I guess that's a big part of what attracts me to music that much. Feeling understood.
The title of this post is stolen from Rick Springfield's song.
But it describes my current mood/overall feeling just perfect.
Love is cruel sometimes and that's what I'm feeling about it right now.
A love that may not be is poisoning my heart. I feel like a puppet losing all control.
How can a woman as wonderful as she enter my life right when I'm about to marry my longtime love? Ain't that ironic?
My heart's pushing me in her direction. Being close to her is like a drug. Her presence, her words make me high. Haven't felt like that in a long time. I can't help but feel enarmored. It's like magnetism, like an undertow.
And it's crushing me.
Just avoiding her is not an option. I see her at work every day.
That's why I wish I had a concrete heart. If I had I'd probably be able to stop myself.
My biggest hope is my fiancée's infinite love and trust.
She's an angel.
I've got to make it somehow.
I owe it to my longtime love.
She never let me down.
I may not let her down, either.
May god be with me through this.
One Desire's song Hurt accompanied me through the last few days.
I love how much passion singer André Linman put into the performance - amazing!
"Hurt, doesn't matter where the pain is coming from
when it still burns and the fire here inside me wasn't enough
when we say love can't you see there was never ending love
and it's still here - and it's still here
when the end is all alone"
One Desire - Hurt
